Should I go? What if it is not him? What will happen? I have been with him all this time. I have seen things, and felt things that are……….unexplainable. There is no logic. There is no wrapping my brain around all that I have experienced.

 I am compelled to try. Could it be possible? Could it be that everything I have perceived, that all the experiences of my life have prepared me only for this moment? Could it be that if I do this that everything will change? If it happens, I will never look at the world the same. He is there. I see him. I know it is him. I heard his voice.

 Will they laugh if I fail? I know they will. I will lose all semblance of respect. They will mock me mercilessly.   They will create nicknames to remind me of my failure. It will be their favorite story. Who knows I may not even survive.

 I can not let this go. This is a moment that will never come again. I believe I can. I believe he Is. This is not too big. I won’t let fear hold me back. I refuse to live like the rest that can’t even imagine what it would be like to go. I will go. I am going….

 Peter got out of the boat.

 See you at church.

Pastor Chris